the least i can do is stop giving people a reason to talk specifically about me in relation to you. i know nikolai doesn't like the rumors, anyway. it doesn't help the rumors he was already dealing with before. i just don't want people talking badly about you. i hate hearing it.
alina, no. no. that's not what i meant. i'm just trying to make sure this works. you're meant to be something. something great. i don't want to stand in the way of that. you'll see me. i promise. just maybe not when you've got a hundred pairs of eyes on you.
i'm surprised nikolai didn't get someone to tailor your face into a perpetual smile. if they think that then they just don't know the real you. look, the next time i'm not there, just think about that time i fell into that puddle of muddy water outside the chapel. that way you don't have to look miserable.
no i'll just laugh and look mad because no one will know what i'm laughing at. actually maybe pretending to be mad is a good strategy to be left alone.
are queens supposed to plan this kind of misbehavior? as much as i would enjoy watching nikolai struggle through that, i think i'd enjoy seeing you happy more. it's not impossible.
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i know nikolai doesn't like the rumors, anyway.
it doesn't help the rumors he was already dealing with before.
i just don't want people talking badly about you. i hate hearing it.
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i don't get to see you anymore.
because you two decided that you care more about how people talk about me than me.
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no.
that's not what i meant.
i'm just trying to make sure this works. you're meant to be something. something great.
i don't want to stand in the way of that.
you'll see me. i promise. just maybe not when you've got a hundred pairs of eyes on you.
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a hundred pairs of eyes probably saw me looking pretty miserable anyway.
so maybe they'll just think that's what my face looks like.
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if they think that then they just don't know the real you.
look, the next time i'm not there, just think about that time i fell into that puddle of muddy water outside the chapel.
that way you don't have to look miserable.
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actually maybe pretending to be mad is a good strategy to be left alone.
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as much as i would enjoy watching nikolai struggle through that, i think i'd enjoy seeing you happy more.
it's not impossible.