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[semicharmed]

[ Matt couldn't judge Alina if he wanted to. The story she tells is too familiar. If the connection between Aleks and Nikolai fills him with guilt and horror, though, this makes him angry. An emotion he doesn't feel all that often, and tries not to indulge.

But God, why are they all the same? ]

There are principles like that where I come from. Theories and things.

I'm so sorry he did that. My ex

never tried to take my power or anything, but he made me feel like that all the time. That nobody else would ever care as much as he did, nobody else would know what it was like to be who and what I was

[ To be sort of almost fair to Vincent, he didn't mean he was the literal only person who would get it. More that preternaturals had to stick together. ]

[solmate]

Yeah that


Sounds like Aleksander too.

He's very good at it.
Making you feel special.
But not without reminding you how lonely it can be.

[ And to be fair, he's sort of right. More than sort of, he is right. Loneliness was a truth he always showed, even if he changed the framing.

But she just has to be strong enough not to be tempted to change that. ]

What I mean is
I don't know what he said to you or how he acted towards you.
But whatever happened... I understand.
I've been there too.

[ More recently than Matt probably thinks, but she doesn't need to be that honest either. ]

[semicharmed]

Nothing like what's happened with you or Nikolai, that's for sure

[ Awkwardly, the whole truth insofar as Matt knows it is "actually Aleksander's been pretty cool to me." But he's not going to say that to Alina at this point.

Better to stick with solidarity. ]

I'm sure I don't need to say it at this point, but just in case it bears repeating

he's wrong.

I mean, in a way, even this conversation shows he's wrong.

[solmate]

I know.

[ Does she? Most of the time. Probably. ]

At the risk of being too glib
I'm sorry I ruined your daddy kink.

[semicharmed]

[ Matt stares down at the message for a moment.

Then he barks out a laugh. ​]

Don't even worry about it. 💛 I'd rather know than not.

This does make it 2 for 2 times daddy kink has gone poorly on this planet

[solmate]

Oh saints.
Well. I hope you have better luck you try it next time.
Maybe we should make it our goal to find normal daddies.

[semicharmed]

That's a resolution for the new year I am happy to make.

[ Daddies must be hot, older, somewhat emotionally reserved or distant, and have committed a maximum of one atrocity. ]

[solmate]

you 🤝 me

(and 🤢 at aleksander)